Tell me

imma so exhausted today. had been waiting for 7 hours at the police office to get my driving license. i hate waiting. yeah, everyone does. Now i'm totally stuck in this position. I don't know what should I do to get out from this situation. i just feel like asdfghjkl -.- God, please tell me what should i do and choose.

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

Happy birthday Daddy ♥

Woke up at 6 a.m, settles into dad's room.and........ surpriseeeee!!! Happy birthday daddy!! wish you nothing but the BEST!! :D may God bless you always O:) love ya!! *kisshugs*

see how sweet my lil' sis :')

btw, happy birthday to my nephew, Levinsky Lim and happy birthday too Reffy Nugraha Halim. wish both of you have a good year ahead. Be blessed O:)

PS : present will coming soon :p

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

hello folks, how's your saturday? hope you guys had a great saturday :D I had my manicure today with mom and my sis :3 btw, i'm gonna make surprise for my dad's birthday on monday ;) you see, time flies really fast. maybe this will be the last bday i can celebrate together with him and my family. cause i will move from this town next 2 months *sigh* ahh, i'll miss dad, miss mom, miss my sisters, miss my grandma, miss my fellows, miss home, and miss everything :'( forget it. still 2 months left. let's spent it with happiness :D

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

What your birthday stars foretell

I found my mom's foretell book and here's the meaning of my birthday.

3 March
Versatile, adaptable, generous, sensitive, you come under dominion of the planet Jupiter and the sign Pisces. People of your type, whatever their sex, always have a strongly maternal streak---you "mother" people. This very often entails taking on a good deal of responsibility. You will be your own worst enemy, but as you are able to turn your hard to most things and deal with most situations, there is nothing to regret. The fortunate number is 3; color, purple. Thursday would be a good day. Years of age which be divided by 3 or 12 are good.
As regards business, you have a capacity for running two things at the one time. If you lose, it will be through lack of concentration; when you gain, it will be through sheer luck and personal influence. Prosperity usually comes to your type fairly early, but you seldom save money. There would, however, be some luck in gambling, speculation and sweepstakes.
"Lucky in love" as a rule, you might marry more than once, and there would be happiness. The constitution is sensitive. You will be well when in congenial surroundings.

Well, that's the meaning of my birthday. And i hope the word "you might marry more than once" is totally wrong. I wont marry more than once. ONCE IS ENOUGH.

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

BOREDOM

boredom here boredom there boredom eveywhere *SIGH* how i wish september come faster faster and faster :( im really stuck with this forever holiday -_____- i really need VACATION nowwww!!!

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

Pfftt,, another boring day. photos above were taken at 061 bistro on last sunday. and i tried a personality test and i got the result below.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

Begging you

I don't know how long is it. that I've to resist everything. hide all of the truth in my heart, every time we meet, every time you turn to me, that i pretend to be still. do you know how much i have to force myself. can you hear that? my heart is telling you i love you. but i cannot reveal my true feeling to anyone. can you hear that? my heart is waiting there for you to open. can only hope you will know it someday. though i love you. though i feel it. but deep inside isn't brave enough. can you hear that my hear is still waiting there for you to open, can only hope you know it, that I'm the one here to love you, I'm begging you please know it someday.

xx,
Dewi Novita Sari

I'm scared

I guess one could say that I’m scared.

1. I’m scared of loving and getting hurt.

There are few things I truly love in this life. Jesus, my mommy and daddy, my two sisters, my grandma, my best friend, music, and good food. Those are my true loves. I know that none of them would ever hurt me. There have been a couple of times in my life when a guy has shown real interest in me and I’ve turned him down due to the fear of being put in a vulnerable position. The single time I really, really liked a guy, he just lead me on and ended up making me feel like shit through many douche-y acts. The question that’s been asked millions of times before: is love worth all of the pain that will most likely spawn from it? Sure, everything is rosey and sugar-coated at the beginning, but what happens after the honeymoon phase subsides?

2. I’m scared of losing my independence.

I’m almost 19. I’ve never been one of those boy-crazed girls. Never really worried about relationships and all of that. But now that there’s another chance for me to get close to a guy, I’m scared of losing my independence. It’s not like I’m a promiscuous girl… that’s the last thing anyone would call me. I’m scared of losing the strength I have as an individual. Where I am now, I feel confident about myself and my abilities, and I’m so scared of putting myself in a position where someone could possibly make me doubt myself. Should I put that on the line just to possibly fall in love?

3. I’m scared of new things and the unknown. Like having a boyfriend.

New experiences are scary. The first time I went on a date, I thought I was going to hyperventilate. Starting a relationship with a guy is completely unknown territory for me. I wouldn’t know how to act, what to do. I’m scared of not always smelling good and not always being in peak physical condition. I’m scared of any guy touching me in a way that I haven't been touched before. I’m scared of having to play a part that I don’t know how to play, because all I can be is myself and myself is not a girlfriend. I try and justify the possibility of turning him down by telling myself that if it takes this much thought, it’s not meant to be. But not every romance begins with love at first sight. Not every couple started out on ideal terms. Yet… I don’t know what to do. The easy thing would be to simply continue doing what I’ve been doing my whole life – nothing. Or I could put everything on the line and just go for it.

I’m not even in love and I’ve just given up hours of sleep to write about it. This worries me. It scares me.

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

When the time is right it will happen

Sometimes i might be jealous if see those who have found their love. People like myself who long to find 'the one' envy them and can't wait to be in their position. I wonder when will he come? will he come tomorrow? or the day after tomorrow? or he will never come? Those questions keep hanging in my mind. But I say to myself everyday when the time is right it will happen. And it will. :) So for those who have found your love, never let he/she go, hold on tight.

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

Emptiness

My life sucks but i don't feel the need to forcibly end it. I don't know how common this is, but for me, the main problem is that i feel disconnected from everyone and everything. Okay, i have my family who loves me for the way i am and i have many friends out there who i care about and who care about me, but no real intimacy with anyone. I feel like i will be alone for the rest of my life.Yeah, it sucks, this totally sucks. I don't know how to end this with any helpful advice or words of wisdom. If you think you do, email me and let me know. Omoo, i started complaining about my life. Forgive me Lord.

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

i've no idea what to type here. i'm really stuck with this "forever" holiday. got nothing to do. i want july come faster because there's so many things i can do. it's still 21 days left to july *sigh. okay i'm off now and happy friday everyone.

xx,
Dewi Novita Sari

we are not friends forever

Let’s face it, we’ve changed, we’ve all changed. Somewhere between summer ending and school starting, we’ve all gone our own directions. Hearts were broken, friendships were diminished, and new loves started and new people came into our lives. We no longer spend all of our time together in our circle of friends; we no longer talk for hours about nothing at all. Some of us are finding love while some of us are trying to let go. Even though we’ve changed we all know that even though we’re all finding our own place in the world that when we find love, let go of a love, or when the tears fall, or a smile spreads across our face, we’ll come to each other because no matter where this crazy world takes us and no matter what happens nothing will change so much that we are all not friends forever.

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

we do love each other

My sister and I are not close. There is one of my secrets, touch it gently. So many siblings, so close. So much loyalty, and shared secrets. And I move amongst them like a liar, a betrayer of the blood. There is so little shared between us that in its minimalism it becomes domineering. Overwhelming. Please understand we are not antagonistic. We are perfectly,blandly,devastatingly congenial. We can sit and watch Friends, and laugh together. We can go grocery shopping together in our sweatpants and feel the same embarrassment when we run into that guy that lives down the street. And one thing's for sure, i do love my sister.

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

busy.busy.busy

hey, how's your days? I hope it was great, not like mine *sigh. This few days am so busy with all things that needs for apply my university and finally it was finished today :) hmm,, maybe 4 or 5 months more i will off there then continue my study. but i've been thinking this since the day where i had decided to take that major. am i right to take this major? and what will happen with my future life? there's so many things in my mind :s anw, i had decided that i wont take ielts exam, because i'm sure i will not passed. i realize that my english was bad and i need to practice my english. and i don't care what people think about my english. i tried my best. this is my blog so if you don't like it you may get off from this site :) well, i think it's enough for today. will have some fun with ma girls tomorrow. goodnight and enjoy your weekends :*

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

Farewell Party

bohooo!!! yesterday was our (VOW) special day. it was AWESOME!!! we had our farewell party at Swiss-bel hotel, The View. i will miss that night for sure :'(

this is my favorite one :3

so cute right? :3

anw, today is my graduation announcement. all of us 3rd grader students at SMA METHODIST-3 PASSED THE NATIONAL EXAM! hip-hip-horayyyyy!!!! :D

and now i'm officially not a high school student anymore. hihih :p

btw, i must prepare for IELTS. wish me luck :)

off to bed now. goodnight chicks :*

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

Decided

After years of disappointment, I finally decided to give up on the male species. No dating, no boyfriends, no love. I mastered the art of causality, distance, and feeling-less flings effortlessly. Anything emotional was always left in a mess, and someone's heart was always broken. I no longer wanted to, or I no longer could, be apart of that binge eating, tearful cycle of the broken hearted. So, I decided to never allow myself to fall into that vulnerable position of actually feeling something real ever again.

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

Today Desty come to my house. She asked me to help her to make his boyfriend's birthday gift. We made a photo frame and birthday card. It took hours to make it. Got backache because of that and she should treat me! :p

vessel rupture -.-

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tadaaaa!!!!

what do you think?

After that we ate ice-cream. yayy! :D then waited for KS to fetch us. He promised us before 7 pm he'll arrive at my house, but the fact.... tsktsktsk *you-know-what-i-mean right?. We went to sate padang triadi for our first dinner then fetched AA and continue to MW to take our second dinner at Mcd :p Desty went home first, her boyfriend fetched her at Mcd. How sweet they are and me so envyyy with them lah :p

Lotta' fun today :D how i will miss the times with them *sigh. gotta sleep now. goodnight chicks :*

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

Graduation Ceremony

here's some of my graduation ceremony pictures this afternoon. it was great :) we got i-dont-know-what-it-called *semacam miss universe punya* :p each person.

this what i mean :p

finished the ceremony at 7 pm. tired -.- oh, i got another gift from devina. here's the pict. thanks a lot girl. i'll miss you too! *kisshugs :*

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

b.o.r.e.d.o.m

My life's kinda boring now. Nothing to do with this forever holiday *sigh. Guess what i've done in this recent day? Eat,sleep,online,eat,sleep,online. Oh geez, my life really sucks -.- Anw, tomorrow i will attend my graduation ceremony at school. Ahh, finally meet my friendsssss :'). Next week i will receive my graduation letter. Hope all of us can pass. Amen O:) but the day before that day, we'll have our farewell party at Swiss-belhotel. That will be AWESOME! :D and guess what *again* i've got my farewell dress and heels. I'll post the picture later :) Have a nice friday everyone. chaos.

xx,

Dewi Novita Sari

how i wish

♥ dewi

i.miss.you

I don't know why but I miss you so damn much. I know that you're not mine and you will never ever be mine. But I really need you right now, right here beside me. Yeah I'm officially miss you. And yes you can call me stupid, silly or whatever but right now I wish you were here because I miss you.

♥ dewi

this place is where i'm going to continue my study.

3 years there without mom and dad. It will really hard for me. I'm going to miss all of them. Will miss my 2 crazy yet annoying sisters, miss grandma, miss my girls and boys, miss home, miss mom's cooking, miss medan's food, miss all of things. *sigh. I know life must go on, but please could the time tick slower. It seems like the time tick faster faster and faster each day.

♥ dewi

and here comes another boring day *sigh. 5 months holiday. so what should i do with this 5 months?????? :S and here's my promise yesterday. enjoy :):)

♥ dewi

Hello May

hello fellow readers. how's your 1st May?? mine good enough. i went to omlandia and citra karya wisata w/ aa, ks, alex, venus. we took some silly photos there :p then i and ks went to nuansa with rosemary, cassandra, and budi. then i'm home around at 10 pm. how i will miss this kind of moments. hanging out with my girls and boys, taking silly photos, laugh like crazy, and many more. *sigh. about 4 or 5 months to go. i'm gonna miss all of them. no doubt.

PS : will upload the picts tomorrow. goodnight xx

♥ dewi