Friday, January 20, 2012

Worst day ever

woke up at 6, picked up by the taxi at 7.30 and I'm on my way to the airport. almost arrived but suddenly, "OMG! i forgot my passport!!!". i can't do anything, trying to go back but it useless. my flight is 8.45 and now is 8.20. asdfhjkl!! and i should buy new ticket for 376rm and wait for 8 hours at the airport. fcukkkkkk! i really hate today. now its still 15.41 and i should wait here alone for one and half hour more before my flight -_____- gotta off now before the owner of this cafe come again. just now he told me if i want to use the plug more than 10mins i should order more food. wtf. bye!

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Another visit

i'm coming back to my hometown tomorrow. frankly speaking, I'm not excited at all. how i wish i could fast forward the time *sigh* going to sleep now. i got morning flight tomorrow -.-

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

One day, the pain will be useful

i stay up just late enough until I'm exhausted enough and i can force myself to sleep. i can't stand to lie in bed and in a dark room alone with my thoughts. i hate this situation so much. how can i survive each night without crying? i've been keeping myself busy as busy as hell and stop thinking about it. but it useless. it ended up crying when i go to bed. yes, I'm tired but it's not all from lack of sleep. I'm tired of waking up with nothing to look forward to, tired with everything around me. tired of this void, this emptiness and loneliness that presses down on me even though I'm surrounded by dozens of people. but who actually cares anyway. it makes my life seem pointless. maybe i'm not okay today and i might not be tomorrow. i really fucked it up this time, didn't i my dear?

PS : i just want you to know that i try my hardest everyday.

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

Saturday, January 14, 2012

See you when i see you


i feel so empty now.
xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

Slow down mr. clock

i really hate that time flies way toooo fast! I'm at malaysia now. start my first day of school today, luckily the morning class cancelled. but still, i got afternoon class -.- btw, I'm going to singapore this friday after i finished my class and will come back to malaysia again at sunday. off to bed now. goodnight! :)

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

Sunday, January 1, 2012

Hello 2012





Happy New Year 2012 everyone :D

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari

Goodbye 2011

i've learned a lot this year. i've learned that things don't always turn out the way you planned it or the way you think they should. and I've learned that there are things that go wrong that don't always get fixed or get put back together the way they were before. I've learned that some broken things stay broken and I've learned that you can get through bad times and keep looking for better ones as long as you have people who love you.

xoxo,
Dewi Novita Sari